As far back as I can remember, I’ve had a big love for life and adventure. My mama called me fearless. I would be the first one to stand in line for the crazy roller coaster right after it stopped working, the one to jump off bridges and 50 ft cliffs. I’ve always wanted to live my life to the fullest, nonstop fun and adventure.
When my life crashed several years ago and I hit rock bottom, God moved me to NC. It’s where He began the painful healing process in me. He also made my greater calling very clear to me as He began to reveal that my identity has been in the approval of others.
He took me through a season of “Jesus + Nothing”. He showed me that, far too many Christians have Jesus on a shelf along with other idols and identities. Mine was, “I love you Jesus, just don’t take my people”.
He responded with, “Really? How about I take your people and move you across the country, with no popularity, very few friends and no family. Your identity needs to be reshaped to be in me alone. I am doing a new thing in you.”
That began what is now 6 years of God giving me a makeover, to the point that I don’t even identify with who I once was. Now I seek His kingdom before my own and obey when it’s uncomfortable. The way I act, react, how I think, it’s all completing changed and still changing.
It’s only possible because I chose purpose over pleasure.
When you are willing to sacrifice, to be obedient no matter the cost, then peace, favor and protection is your constant companion.
I heard something yesterday while at a girl’s beach trip, that I haven’t heard in quite some time. Three women at separate times during the day came up telling me, “I’m so glad you’re here, you brought the sunshine.” “You’re the life of the party. I love your heart for people.”
You see, God created me to be this fun + encouraging woman. He just had to get me to a place where it wasn’t my identity. If people don’t affirm me then I’m ok because He’s now my identity. He’s my rock.
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” – Jeremiah 29:11-13
Let’s be people that seek why we are on this earth. I guarantee you it’s not to be rich, famous, and comfortable. Only He has the fulfillment we are longing for. He has the answers you need.